One of my clients asked if I had kids of my own.

She’s been one of the loveliest and kindest client/trainers in the company. We’ve gotten into the habit of making smalltalk and sharing stuff about each other beyond the boundaries of employee-employer relationships. She’s become a friend.

Yet I still find it uncomfortable to out myself. I usually need the help of someone saying it for me. I guess I’ll never be comfortable admitting it even though I’m no longer in the closet.

I guess part of me is still afraid that things might change when people find out. Perhaps they’ll treat me differently. Perhaps their perception of me might change. This is most likely the trauma talking. But no matter how nice she was, I just couldn’t bring myself to correct her.

What a sad realization.