I’m not even wishing I could turn back time.

I’m not hoping to fast forward either.

Most days, I just want it to stop.

All of it.

Organized Unorganized Random Thoughts

I don’t know what to do anymore…

My dad’s dying and I find it hard to force myself to feel anything.

My mom is worrying yet I can’t force myself to care.

My world is slowly falling apart and all I can do is stare.

I’m supposed to take my master’s degree.

I’m supposed to be a prodigy.

I’m supposed to be someone great and amazing.

But I don’t have a goal… anymore…

It’s like the world is burning. But I don’t feel anything.

I’m numb. Neutral to everything that goes on around me.

I don’t know what to do.

I wish I could just find eternal peace… But even that worries me.

I don’t know what I’m writing. I just am.

Maybe this will help. Maybe you’ll read this.

Maybe you’ll get to know me a bit better. Or maybe you won’t.

I just really don’t know what to do. This is random. I guess.


I was red, and I liked you because you were blue.

But when we touched, you knew that the lilac sky just wasn’t for you.

And all I could do, was admire you from afar

A popular excerpt which I edited


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