Not sure how much longer I can last…
I’m not even wishing I could turn back time.
I’m not hoping to fast forward either.
Most days, I just want it to stop.
All of it.
I don’t know what to do anymore…
My dad’s dying and I find it hard to force myself to feel anything.
My mom is worrying yet I can’t force myself to care.
My world is slowly falling apart and all I can do is stare.
I’m supposed to take my master’s degree.
I’m supposed to be a prodigy.
I’m supposed to be someone great and amazing.
But I don’t have a goal… anymore…
It’s like the world is burning. But I don’t feel anything.
I’m numb. Neutral to everything that goes on around me.
I don’t know what to do.
I wish I could just find eternal peace… But even that worries me.
I don’t know what I’m writing. I just am.
Maybe this will help. Maybe you’ll read this.
Maybe you’ll get to know me a bit better. Or maybe you won’t.
I just really don’t know what to do. This is random. I guess.
I was red, and I liked you because you were blue.
But when we touched, you knew that the lilac sky just wasn’t for you.
And all I could do, was admire you from afar
A popular excerpt which I edited